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2010-11-24T00:52:00.012+08:00

I think the reason why I've been posting even for the couple 2 previous posts, were because Belle reminded me to! Hahahaaa! Otherwise, I feel really lazy to even though i want lol. Okay, already the holiday. So many things to do. High tea's over, Camp's over, work's been pretty good whenever there are events. What else? It's all been great. Went out with 4n3s, small group of them. They are like, woo-hoo! That's why I love them sooooooo much! Just got back from Rick's birthday BBQ @ his place. Great, great! Talked happy, talked funny, talked angry, talked serious. It's all good now, I hope! Well, no high hopes, but hoping it's gonna stay the way it is, going well, as long as we're all together as one.
Yes, got him a simple present. But I believe it's an expensive memory due to what had happened and all. Grad High was really fun. And really really upset for Sec 5s are leaving. Goodness, time flies, so fast! I'll never forget them. They are the most annoying ones, funny ones, caring ones, even though many are pretty irritating. HAHA. Really, great impact done in my life. All these changes! WOEEEE.. Okay, enough. I'll upload pictures!!

2010-10-17T00:42:00.003+08:00

This picture was the advanced birthday BBQ for 4n3's mummy Dino's birthday. Few teachers came too! Number of mates didn't went for BBQ, few not in picture. And rest of the people are a group of malay guys our class happen to 'know' since they were playing songs on their instruments and stuffs, Huiying decided we get them to do a birthday song for Ms Dino when she comes. And they asked for a picture to be taken. Here, this is it.

Past 2 days including the BBQ day itself, were hectic days working. Even today, after the day of BBQ, next morning, to Chong Zheng Primary for activities with them. After, out with JTan and Sis, but was feeling extremely tired the whole time! This week's such a hectic and awesome week despite the schedules crashing on one another and the hard time to handle them. Yeah, I'm over this week. Spent too much this week, overspent! Gonna save up as much as I can coming week! Tomorrow's a day rest and coming Monday's gonna be a school day and Temasek Poly visit! Good night..

2010-10-15T00:55:00.007+08:00

Just another post, like any other Thursdays, not. Friday. like any other post, like any other days, like any other midnights. Just another fact I'd like to share, not everyone shares the same perspective of view. You can share yours, or not. You decide.

Nobody, no wait. Not like nobody at all, but many people take things for granted. Even I do. Everyone don't know what they really have, right with them that they need, and that are important, until they really lost them. Everyone expects, again, not all, but majority, I'd say, hold expectations, to a certain extend, varying from different people. And all thanks to expectations, the disadvantage is, the huge disappointment that one eventually gets. You ask for more, and more, and more. They'd never find it enough, never, ever. Shit happens, just live through it. Yes I know right, it's always easier said than done. And more often than not, we don't realize what's right for us when we're the victim in the situations. That's what friends and families exist for, as an outsider of that situation to remind you, scold you, whatever. Eventually, it's your choice to make, to do what you think is right for you, and you, bear the consequences yourself. Whatever decisions you make today, defines your tomorrow. Make the best of everything, everyday, everyone.

Trust, Loyalty, Personality, Attitude(towards anything), Discipline.

How far do you really rate yourself, based on these 5 points each? Really.

My trust varies, depends, many times I do if I feel people I talk to seems nice. Naive but it's just me.

Loyalty, definitely if the trust is right there.

Personality, I know, my horrible temper, and that I talk too much some times, or many lol. Otherwise, it depends on how I behave with different people.

Attitude, well, everyone's got an attitude problem, but to a certain limit. Mine, comes from my temper. Many times I like to be reasoned, therefore I like asking why.

Discipline, I'm hell not disciplined. Just some times when I know I really gotta stop procrastinating, of course I'd start doing what I have to. Not every time though..

Am just sharing, after a long fruitful day I had.. Good night sweet hearts. Thanks for the time, if you read them. ♥

2010-10-08T13:51:00.003+08:00

ONE MORE PAPER ON MONDAY AND I'M DONE DONE!!!!!!

YAAAAAAY! However those papers I've done before, it's over, no use crying over spilled milk already. Just can't wait for all that things waiting for me after my last paper. Probably feast somewhere or Malaysia since both brother and I's paper last on Monday. Class BBQ, Halloween, phototakes, catching up with friends, gym. Wut. And job hunting, perhaps! Mug hard for last paper, and bye!

2010-08-29T23:04:00.002+08:00

And the cutest, best photos Jacqueline have gotten of him @Tab. Yay, call me crazy, I am crazy, I love David choi best. :)

David Choi's performance at Esplanade

2010-08-22T00:31:00.007+08:00

Pictures for David Choi today's performance at Chillout stage at Esplanade Concourse. I did not have a camera with me, except the pathetic phone camera I had. And were at the side of the stage, not too great :( He barely turned to us though he still would, at times, for he understands that and felt sorry. But it's okay David! Hahaha! Those cute stuffs, smiles and everything, was awesome. I took videos almost the whole time though, separated. Man, and he left just like that. Last day :( And the last moment was looking at him go down that lift. Didn't know some girls actually went to his hotel, shit. I wanted to. Argh. No more David Choi in Singapore :(((((((((

Shit I'm hella sad. Argh. I wanted a picture with him. And of course, another hug!

Boooooo. never mind. For at least I've seen him live again today, though not as near! But it's okay, I'll get over this real soon.

Videos tells my second day, David Choi @ Chillout Stage, Esplanade! Awesome!!

david choi's autograph session

2010-08-20T23:50:00.014+08:00

THE MEET AND GREAT SESSION WITH DAVID CHOI!

Went for a movie with Clara, Nicole and Ziqin early in the afternoon since there's no school today. Supposingly, The Last Airbender, our show for the day, but I was reminded that it was not that good after all. So, made a decision changed last minute, Step Up3. It was really really awesome! After movie, head up to 313Somerset HMV for David Choi's autograph session. Was really anxious when I could not see his album anywhere there, then counter found the last album for that batch before the restock. Great! So, had an earlier queue, than to wait for the restock! met him between 7.30pm-7.45pm. Serious, the pictures taken by Nicole, camera borrowed from Clara, thank you! Those pictures tells the story. Extremely happy. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! :D

Then City Square Mall for Nicole's CN BLUE's autograph, but too many people! 5th floor, watched them, carpark, see them off, and few cabbies booked by certain hard-core fans and chased them. Wow. Apologize to Ziqin for leaving her around walking reason being, only one person can come in the line with me, I'm so sorry! And thanks girls for the time and all! I'd like to say, this is the best day of my life!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULY BABIES! :D

2010-07-25T00:10:00.005+08:00

It was Lucas's birthday yesterday and Orlena's today! Happy 17th birthday to both! :) Today was the hangout for Luc's birthday. Went Evo8 twice in between, before and after movie. Pretty fun! Watched blood pledge. Horror turned out like comedy thanks to Luc and co. HAHA! Walked around before meeting some other at Farrer park then Kichi Kichi for steamboat. Damn it was expensive! Guys all went home while Nat and I waited for Agnes and Vincent before going back home. Tiring day, straight 2 days. I'm gonna rest tomorrow. Omg, my dnt and ss! Shit, tuition on Monday too. NICE. OK HOMEWORK TIME.

once again, happy birthday Lucas bro!! :D There, picture for you. HAHAHA! :D

June 'holiday' over.

2010-06-27T11:30:00.005+08:00

Today's the last day of June holiday. No, wait, it's never a holiday to sec4s and 5s. Spent the holidays with En coms for CIPs, activities with kids and stuffs, dnt in school, intensive classes. Pretty fun, fruitful. But not enough for academic. Gosh, no time already! Gotta make good use of all this time left. Okay bye.

It's all worth while.

2010-06-14T20:10:00.006+08:00

Yeah hah. Finally, week 2 of June holiday. Extreme hectic one. School, tuition, as facilitator at the children's camp at Tampines, En comminuty, Chargi-Airport excursion with children, then chalet, then Tri-touch & Body-nits scholarship ceremony, and marina barrage quiz at exhibition, water-play, and kite flying. After all that, now I'm sick. Coughing my lungs out. Argh, but worth it, with those CIP points and all that extreme fun we all had! Hahaha!

Time for family, and completing of my dnt artifact now already.

Time flies, so quickly.

2010-05-26T22:08:00.004+08:00

This was Agnes's 18th birthday! Yeah, 3days 2 nights chalet, became a 6days 5nights chalet lol. Pretty much happening. In fact, very. So so happy we all got to meet up again. Was really wonderful! Haha, chalets, mother's day, mid-year examinations, everything. Time flies, almost June already. 5more months to N lvl, 131 days to N lvl. Oh man. School's been boring, been going to school, and awaits for time to pass, bell to ring, and go home. There were that we did in class except during Math and English. Going through of paper and practice of coming oral. Holiday is drawing near, but no way is that a holiday. Alright, didn't do really well for mid year, time to pull up my socks and work extra extra hard this holiday!

Thank God I found you

As good as dead for the hectic day.

2010-05-01T12:41:00.002+08:00

Basically, went for breakfast with Rainald since he's going back to camp that night and I couldn't make it. Short meet up for breakfast, met Krizzia, off to Tamp, met Joi. she escorted us to meet up with the rest. Scrapping, painting, moving, everything started. Really nice people packed us breakfast/lunch for those who haven't eaten. All of us were busy with own task to do.

Everything was finished at almost 6pm. Cleared, took a picture of everyone, and we left to EduPath and waited for Joi. Were told to go Tamp1 first. Walked over, waited for Joi, and I left for AMK after she came. Didn't join them for dinner, could have been fun. Aww, sorry!

Kept Rio and Daniel Moo waited for nearly 2hours. Man, I'm so sorry! :x

Realized I lost my wallet when we finally settled at a venue for dinner. Thankfully Rio paid first, after dinner, went looking for my wallet, and fortunate me, I found :)

Gave them much trouble after not meeting them for months, so sorry!! :X

Agnes and Vin then came to find me, saying they'd escort me back home since they had nothing to do, when they know I lost my wallet lol. Ahha! Aww, so sweet of them! Pool for awhile, and caught my last bus home. Coincidentally saw Guowei on the bus. HAHA. Happening day I'd say. Dead tired, seriously.

Done with summing up for the day. Headache and muscleaches now. Geez :(

Amazing weekend spent.

2010-04-22T16:22:00.009+08:00

Yeah baby, above pictures were taken last Saturday in the Amazing Race on 17th April with the Guest-of-Honour, Dr Fatimah. It was extremely fun. Some of us were the station masters, and the rest were the marshals. Families and singles team participated. Thumbs up to those who were enthusiastic with this race! :)

Everyone ran through the whole City hall, Marina Sq, Esplanade underpass, all over there!

Then group pictures, with and without Evergreen secondary peeps! :p

And of course, had great time stationed with Yuhan and Winston!

Was an interesting CIP hour spent. Then Vincent's birthday the next day. Met them at Sentosa, Agnes and co. Tagged Clara along with me! :D

Sentosa, then vivo, basically walking around, but Claire and I skipped the movie and went home.

Fantastic weekend wisely spent (Y)

Now, time to prepare for MYE coming up!

chao outside~

Happy 17th birthday! :D

2010-03-27T19:37:00.003+08:00

Put up with this picture first, birthday girl! :D We'll take a picture again on your belated one, then I'll replace this with that. HAHA. Yes, happy birthday, NatNat! :D
Been through quite a bit, though we never do see each other very much, but hopefully things stays the way it is. As long as things won't fall apart, yes?
And well, though am not able to celebrate it with you, hope you will pretty much have a great one today, enjoy it. I'll see you real soon in school dear!

<3

Pretty tiring.

2010-03-06T00:05:00.003+08:00

Random update! Because Bellebelle reminded me to, on my tagboard? lol. E-learning day, don't know how to do majority -.- Activities this coming week and so much deadlines by this week too. Oh, dead. March already, great, time flies. Drastic changes. But still, I have to make studies the priority at the moment. Ah, off to finish E-learning now.

Thinking ≠ missing.

17th birthday?

2010-02-17T22:25:00.004+08:00

I don’t need extremely expensive, branded gifts.
I don’t need a big surprize party.
I don’t need a hundred, thousands and millions of wishes or people to celebrate for me.
I don’t need everyone to wish me, ON THE DOT.
I don’t need the whole world to know.
I don’t need to be in the center of attention.

Really, no gifts needed, a wish, a thoughtful wish and everything, its all more than enough to make me have the widest smile you’ll happen to ever see on my face.
I thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart, Thank you, veryvery much.
I very much appreciate all these!! I MEAN IT!

Thanks JonathanT, SJY, Rainald, and Belle for the dedications on your blog :D

Homework craze!

2010-02-13T21:27:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY! Don't feel anything special for this year one though. Still gotta do homeworks through visitings. And CCA double time continue to be paid off until april, deadline. Make up time even on the day after my birthday on Pertapis home visit. Great! Give me a break please! #$%^#$%

BYEBYE.

"Energy vacuum"

2010-01-30T17:07:00.005+08:00

Ah. Its been some time since I even hang out. The last time was Belle's birthday hangout. Its really crazy to always have those few words swirling around in my mind, 'ToaCahSoh, Soluble, Acid, Alkali, River, Coast, blahblah" All these shits. CRTs covering almost the majority of my weekdays after school. And CCA, programmes and etcetc. This is only the damn start.

And now, probably tuitions. @#$%#$%^

Pressure's not seen by others but felt by yourself.

Happy 17th birthday! :)

2010-01-22T06:37:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday AnnabelleLZL!
Shall see you, birthday girl in school soon, lateer!
Hope you'll have a great birthday! :D

Can't promise you the best. But, I'll try.

2010-01-06T21:41:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry I upset you. I'm sorry I disappointed you.

I am sorry..

Life's been 'great'

2009-12-18T01:24:00.005+08:00

Such life can be great, when your sick and tired of fucking things in your fucking lifes. And yes, just fucking leave me alone because I wanna fucking be alone. Y'know why? Because I'm fucking sick now! Woot, for really long now. Argh. What sort of shit great antibiotic was I given?! Oh great! Thanks man.

Alright, best of luck for everyone getting their 'N' level results tomorrow! Oh, no, wait, its past 12, so, later! :) BEST OF LUCK YEAH!

I worry too much about little things.

2009-12-09T16:23:00.003+08:00

Pffft, I'm so sick now. Been home for almost a week or more already. Can't stay home any longer! Sick of chalets and bbqs already lol. Many are flying off overseas, aww, thats boring, I don't get to! :( Can't wait to get well and chill out again. Thinking of how school would re-open very much soon, its double the boredom. Okay, gotta just enjoy this holiday's thats gonna end pretty soon before school re-opens! Bon voyage to everyone flying to anywhere out of Singapore! :D

I can't promise to fix all your problems but I can promise you won't have to face them all alone.

Happy birthday EugeneQ!

2009-11-23T19:41:00.006+08:00

Holidays! Bridging course are over. Kong's chalet with usual people is great, well, the bestest chalet compared to the previous few. Then steamboat with usual sec4s. Great one man, been long since we gather together. Haven't been feeling well recently. Hoping things will get better, then, Eugene and Jon's birthday with Sis's chalet. :)

The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.

A leopard never changes its spot.

2009-11-08T01:41:00.003+08:00

Alright, EOY's finish, bridging course is on, just another week, and here comes freedom. Chalets, drinkings, shoppings, oh man, here it all comes. No more play time, serious for 'N' level next year! Pull up your socks lin!

Somethings are things that words can never describe.

Its you.

2009-10-20T00:46:00.001+08:00

Your the reason why I never dared to feel extremely happy anymore. Because, you may make me feel like the happiest girl on earth but next moment, made me fall right down from the highest building you can ever find. So, I never dared to climb any higher anymore. The pain I had several times after climbing so high, are lessons I know its much painful than I thought it would be.

Get over it.

2009-10-13T10:20:00.005+08:00

Get over it, lin. I need to get over anger, and everything else. Examinations, pack schedules. Ohmygod, there goes my head, "Bomb". Its time to let go whats not mine, and not allowing anything else to get over my emotions. Wish me luck now, bye!

“I’m gonna try everything to just feel better,
Every little thing to just feel better.”

I regret not treasuring thus, I lost you.

2009-10-05T16:34:00.005+08:00

To think of it, I guess, I haven't been really nice to you. Until I lost you, for long enough,
and I finally realize, I wouldn't have lost you if I had treasured..

I miss the past months.

2009-09-25T19:57:00.004+08:00

Frankly, I do miss everything. But, things are all so screwed now. I don't know where to start from. Therefore, decide to explain once things are much stable, at least, more stable than current. Can I ask for permission to stay away from everything first, then come back to things after exam? I can't fail and fall again. I'll let nature takes its course, at least for now. Even though stuffs angers me much nowadays. There are alot to face, which is why I don't know where to start from. Another reason being, I ain't stable. Not totally. So, yeah.

Apologies for everything,
sincere apologies to some particular people.
In any case, after exam.

2009-09-22T18:23:00.001+08:00

Happy 15th birthday,
Firzanah!

Great classmate! :)

Its unexplainable. I still care.

2009-09-17T20:49:00.001+08:00

The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing… not healing, not curing… that is a friend who cares.

I wish its explanable. I wish I could spell them out to everyone.
Its all screwed up. Everything turns out to be a misunderstanding.
I don't know how to voice 'em out to ya'all anymore I guess..

Where have I gone wrong?

2009-09-13T02:34:00.002+08:00

Happy belated birthday to,
Shihua and GlennChan! :)

I'm sorry, I can't be perfect.

Lifeless, immature, casanova.

2009-09-10T00:31:00.004+08:00

What the hell do I get from being nice? Hell nothing. My god. This suck. How am I suppose to stand up facing all these shit together with another bunch of shit coming up stacking all up on my bloody head?

For the sake for what?
Hell you go, fucker.
(Sorry for being vulgar)

What do you take me for?

2009-09-01T02:43:00.004+08:00

Happy belated birthday, yesterday.
Alvis's 16th birthday!

Only been wishing peeps on posts. Hmm, well, gambateh for you guys' upcoming 'N' lvl yeah! Study hard! :D

Bye for now! :)

Fuck my life.

2009-08-17T21:18:00.002+08:00

Finally, Singapore's flyer today with class. Hilarious excursion. But still, today's just a black Monday. Today basically suck. Well, goodluck people for all your prelims. May be late but... Gambateh! :)

FML

Sixteenth birthday.

2009-08-16T03:13:00.001+08:00

Happy belated birthday Zhihui!
&
Happy birthday Minqi, JasL, YKaijie!

Happy 17th birthday.

2009-08-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Jordan!
(Birthday man)

Sixteenth birthday.

2009-08-12T20:15:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday ChuaXinyi, TanJiahui, and ChrisChong.
Sweet 16 all! :)

When you see my head expand, it'll when its gonna burst.

2009-08-12T00:54:00.004+08:00

Aggy's back from Viet! Yay! :)
Thanks babe for the stuff!

And yes, I could have chose to ignore it, long ago.
but I did not. How tiring can it be to hear the same old thing again and again...
And, sad to say, they never really listens to what you say.
Because, your the 'smart aleck' to them.

Who am I to say?

2009-08-09T01:23:00.000+08:00

一路顺风，my dear Aggy! Ahhaha!
Miss me babe! :D

Why not, forget and full stop.

2009-08-04T23:40:00.003+08:00

Rehearsal cancelled due to people who won't turn up. Thus, programme cancelled. Some say its a pity. Test, test, test. Ohmygod. Time I hunt for Biology and Geography text around the whole Singapore already. Lol! Okay, rest time. Bye!

2009-08-02T00:30:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday my dear phoonping! :)
Here, this video is done for you by me! Hope you had a great day today ahha!

Takecare, noob.

2009-07-31T23:36:00.001+08:00

Dumb, get well soon. No comp and games for you until you get better. Okay!
Recover from H1N1! Quickquick!

Duped in shit.

2009-07-30T00:11:00.003+08:00

Fuck your whole fam. Seriously. Back on it? Eh yah. Whatever. I don't know how long more this hatred's gonna last inside of me. But I'm just ranting, not hating. I guess?
Faster and better? Dang you. Didn't know your such rich asshole.

2009-07-27T23:49:00.003+08:00

Superman.

My valentines

Idk what love song.

How did things come to such chaos?

2009-07-26T21:36:00.001+08:00

Everything's on Adrian & Lucas's blog. Check their new blog out! :)

http://backtwolife.blogspot.com/

2009-07-24T19:56:00.002+08:00

Happy 16th birthday Lucas, yesterday.

Sorry for the belated wish! :)

Don't wanna lose something without knowing why..

2009-07-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

I suppose things are almost done on newly revived blog. Yes, I'm so sourish aching all over me with cramps and more cramps from top to toe. Shiz. I can barely walk. Solar eclipse is cool! Hahaah, okay, I'm tired, ciaos! :)

2009-07-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

Ohmygod, I screwed my blog! Gonna start messing around with the html until I get things right.
Ciaos!

2009-05-18T22:15:00.001+08:00

Journal at the moment.
want the link, ask from me.

Happy Birthday huimin!

2009-05-17T14:22:00.001+08:00

Okay this is small, but nevermind.
Haha, passerby? Lol i havent look at that tags though.
Whatever, hopped around all blogs lol!
critisize every single one lmao.
out yesterday was tiring. cine for lunch, arcade and lan.
then chomp for dinner, and surprise for egg,
at my void. :D
lousy mood now Zzz
idk if im going out. or coffee shop t acc parents.
bye anw Zzz

2009-05-16T10:38:00.000+08:00

Isn't this sweet? hahaha!

I doubt i can stay over tonight.

Godamnit. always thinking of whatever they shouldn't.

C'mon, whats with staying over with over 10people?

Lmao. Idiots.

Slept yet but managed to get up :D

Suppose to dota w alvin but ended up dota-ing with ws haha!

okay. post later then (:

2009-05-15T23:43:00.001+08:00

Okay, so, was late for the gathering. I'm soo sorry.

Didn't expect to have soooo many people there O_O

Alot more than expected though. haha. so, there was this tour-guide cum joker.

Yeah, and whats good. i got to see Angeline and Jiayi! omg :D

And i saw the birthday girl today! Woot :D

hahaha, so, trained to vivo together, alvin the tour-guide, making everyone laugh.

LOOL. then yeah, watched uninvited. He said, we're thicked-face to go watch it.

Cause it already says uninvited we still go LOL. lmao

Movie was complicated lah lol. Almost caught no balls hahaha!

Then arcade, then clarke quay, looking for somewhere to buy .

Since the youngest there looked the oldest, erm i think? Yeah, was Alvin

hahaha! i think its spelt like that. But anw, thanks alot mannn! :D

Jiayi was drunk. ops. or not hahaha! cause she said she wasn't

Yeah went that.. I forgot whats the name of it. Jap stuffs. then subway.

Wanted to go partyworld for KTV. But sadly, its waaay too expensive.

So, drank then trained home. Yeah, was really fun hahaha!

Meeting up next time for Blood the movie huh? ^^

So, tomorrow i shall be agnes' LOL .

we'll all be hers tmrw LOL. sounds wrong but nevermind.

Yeah today had .. let me see how much i remember..

Angelin, Jiayi, Alvin, Liping, Edwin, Felicia, Yaoqi, Angeline's boyfriend,

Sean, and who? o.o ...

no more right? LOL. thats how much i remember.

hahaha. okay. done. i'ma lil giddy. lol. goodnight.

alvin's retard dance shall be posting tmrw (:

Oh whatever,
You love her deepdeep?
Hah! C'mon, don't make me laugh.
What shit. Why the fuck am i jealous?!
I don't love you anymore i swear.
Wtf. Now i feel hatred. Urgh, MORE.
D':

2009-05-15T12:24:00.003+08:00

Picture from Apple's blog :D

Okay, yesterday was okay, except that i'm having muscle aches.

I don't know why haha! But nevermind.

K-box, then went get present for peixian and then waited for kitty,

with clara and yuting. Met Aggy for abit at hg mall :D ,

Then, Bussed to downtown together w viv and co.

Walked around the park outside chalet most of the time.

Then beach at the end of the day, since i couldn't stay over.

That god damn reason for it was because my parents thought,

i had school. oh wtf. They could have asked or said.

But they only asked me when i got home. Pffffft, irritating.

Then yuting's parents drove me home. Thanks again girl! :D

Today, gonna meet up with jiayi, angeline and co.

I don't know who. But i'm friendly, so, whatever! HAHAHAHA! :D

Okay, i needa drink later. D:

Post when i get back. out with cliques tmrw yay!

for my dear agnes' birthday. hahaha! i love you dooodeh :D

Happy birthday my dear Agnes!

2009-05-15T00:26:00.002+08:00

basically, sitting right infront of a super big 'fan'

not a fan actually, supposingly not that clean, wind.

but whatever, it was shiok. super big wind! :D

everything flying LOL.

12.04am now. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGGY! :D
much loved eh! hahaha! oh man your finally old ..
haha! okay i'm tired.
more things to come tomorrow. goodnight!
and thanks yuting, your parents :D for driving me home,
again. hahaha! and chalet's fun but tired woot.
vivian! your belt's still with me LOL!
okay. goodnight.

Dang, irrating parents, bugging and doubting me,
About me telling them that there's NO school.
==

2009-05-14T10:20:00.000+08:00

Kind of like this picture haha! There's more i like one too. lol

even though its without me but with my photography skills!

okay i gotta go bath and come out soon.

cause the 2 superman's girl are bathing,

yet superman is here still sorting out the pictures brand-new-day

sent me. ops. idk why i gave this name but i had it in mind this morning.

time for k-box. oh hella yeah. hahah! thanks fafa during paper :p

finally paper have all finished. oh yes i flunked, retain again? fine.

been lacking of sleep real alot. oh and i don't know if i can stay over for px's chalet.

tsk. troublesome swine flu. okay. bath now.

post later if i'm comin' back. cause jiayi's gathering with angeline tmrw too!

woooop! i miss ya guys! :D

I would advise myself, i'd rather go be one casanova too!

2009-05-13T21:15:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday Peixian for tmrw! (:

i got this picture myself okay! not from site :D

Okay, i'm back woot. my leg is sour == ... REALLY SOUR! lol.
let me recall everything about today.. Hmmm..
okay, math paper1 today. i had high fever last night so had medicine before i go to bed
then during paper, didn't fall asleep on purpose. luckily mr ho woke me up (:
couldn't finish much though. i mean yes i had that time to finish but my formula went blank in mind D:
so, forget it. i guess its a gonne. tomorrow's DnT. i want to pass that. okay i must try to study.
so i'll go shower then study already. aight, paper finished, rushed home, back school.
met egg, her home, teevee, bread, then bussed to bedok.
then trained to bugis. accompanied my dear for her supposingly 'trial' become work lol!
then there goes i'm super bored man. called natty. waited for her. got bored waiting.
camped in the toilet for about 10 minutes i think. hahaha! realise no recep so went out.
then got call from natty that she reached already. woot! on the dot hahha!
went walkwalk then find that da xiao jie -.- happy working babe :D
went back junction bought her sweeeeeeeeeeets and drink. then went off to suntec.
wow my knee joint almost break apart hahaha. then made natty laughed alot.
not very, but alot more than usual heh. okay. then done, trained back. thats why i'm early today.
cause, parents and maid made a big hoo-ha about me having fever last night,
and still going out today. lmao. so stupid. so had to come back early.
sorry my dear egg D:
could have went pick you up from work. hm, lucks to you soon-to-be birthday girl! :D
hahahah! someone's old. tsktsktsk.. ^_^
tomorrow onwards could be kinda pack too. hahaha. goodnight!

Only with love, there's hatred.

2009-05-12T19:49:00.001+08:00

I doubt there will be picture for this post. I wanna try to type proper paragraph already lol.

aight, sup, so, chemistry paper today huh. Suck, even my behavior today sucks.

everyone who spoke to me today knws why. i don't even know why i'm behaving this way.

i'm seriously weird. let me recall.

i could say evelyn to evening, chicken flying to chicken laughing.

i can't remember already lol. but all i know. i'm soo crazy that i made them lmao.

hahaha, not too bad. just that i'll be so uncivilized if we were to laugh at public like that.

watched twilight last night again, oh my god. awesome! (:

then marley and me today. ahhha! cried lol. yeah and i'm sleepy.

didn't had enough sleep. talked to drew til 2am i think. *YAWNNNNS

i guess i wanna work soon heh. tomorrow's schedule kind of clash.

we'll see about it tomorrow my dear egg! (:

aight, what now. i need to sleep but i'm hungry lol, went shop and save for lunch,

after paper just now. and speaking of paper, i typed pimple when i wanted to sms egg.

so again, they went rofl. lol. after lunch, talked kind of alot. then back of shop and save.

and then buangkok block. they were all taking pictures lol. me? camera man! hahah

well pictures uploaded once i got it from them :D

then, clara's home. battery kind of low already. superman not high -.-

headache acted up. wooosh. couldnt stand it. bussed hoem with yuting then.

homeeeee. tomorrow's math paper1. oh gosh. speaking of this.

i need to remember to bring calculator! hopefully i won't flunk too much.

i'm suppose to sleep early tonight. or i'll be under the worse condition tomorrow.

whatsmore in public == . okay, waiting for my dinner now.

goodnight loveys :D

Love is what caused hatred.
If there's hatred, its all because love still exist.
when hatred's gone. love's gone too.
i won't be one faithful girlfriend anymore.
i won't stay anywhere positioned,
permanently anymore. not anymore.

fuck you, you fucking shit

2009-05-11T17:18:00.001+08:00

Fuck you, mum.

really, stop annoying me.

your voice, yours words, everything.

its all getting on my nerves. stop screaming and wording out,

those 'not-so-nice' words for goodness sake.not vulgarities. but words that makes one fume.

can't you stop scolding? can't you stop mentioning about everyone's badness?

you always say things in a way of exagerating. can you stop that?

you would say, i would bath for hourssss.when i'm only in there for 20minutes.

oh what the hell. you've been nagging, bragging, shouting, screaming,

lecturing and everything that might keep you like a radio going on.

its making me blood boil, currently trying to tolerate.

urgh. you fucking scold and scream, asking me to go bath

but you complain i'm taking long. okay fine, then what for wait for me?

then might as well shut the hell up and go out wherever you want.

i'd rather stay home than go out with a barking bitch you get me!?

ah its just unbearable i swear. i can't put these in words.

but its fucking irritating and im getting VERY annoyed by it.

the moment i got up til now. you never stop.

whenever you speaks. your mouth opens.

it feels like damn shit stinky thing coming out from in there.

DO YOU FUCKIN' BRUSH YER TEETH?!

i wonder.. cause it stinks.

and i never would like to tell anyone,

you ARE my mum. cause i'm ashamed to have you as one.

really (:

so what if your the one who brought me here on earth? then i would rather say, i'll rather not come on here.

cause you had never done anything as a mother would. shown love, care? none.

just like one ATM here for me. oh what shit. but i know, i know dad loves me

but he's like me somewhat. hard on mouth, softer in heart. oh thats him and everyone knows it. you? your just realistic. just a couple of days ago,

you admitted being realistic. you said, what else can a human be other than being realistic,

of cause its a must. oh? then i doubt your my mum. lot of times, i wonder if you are my blood-mother.

hah! i really wonder man. nothing of you is like me.

we cant speak up to 10sentences before a quarrel.

whats with you? i hate being realistic. cause i'm god damnit using my heart to live my life.

not using my brains. and i have my heart to use it in every kind of relationships.

i don't use my brains. i don't care if i'm called dumb.

cause i know i'm using my whole heart to care or love someone.

and yes, that is most important to me

even money, not like you, money-faced bitch.

i'm not like that. dang you.

I'd rather choose to be loved, than to love.

2009-05-11T16:41:00.000+08:00

Haha, just got up at, 3.30pm i think.

slept at about 5. webcam-ed with drew,

then fall asleep. shit -.- .

then woke up after 10minutes then tuck myself in bed.

mummy got in early in the morning screaming and shouting.

made me dread waking up so soon.

now i miss genting. tons of precious memories.

every once i buy special stuffs for you every trip back from there.

haha, then a biggy warm hug. been thinking of you the whole night.

thanks to drew. i wanna go over indianapolis :D

even though i got no idea what it is.

thanks fir and wawa for reminding me to bring thermometer and log tmrw (:

now i'm hungry already. heh.

even though i miss you, i cry when i think of everything.

the small little things that pile up in my heart..

just like a jigsaw puzzle. you gave me a start, but you finished it off.

thanks though. haha. i do miss you but i doubt i still love you.

so, drew, your wrong about me still loving him. :D

something i realise last night after deep thoughts.

bottle, you got cheated by your ex-girlfriend before me.

she cheated on your money. and everything.

you knew that she was after your money but you still gave her

'pocket money' every once she wants it from you.

i'll suppose that is true..

then maybe you were unhappy, you can't let it just be.

so you got me as your punching bag for abit.

even though i do love you but i treated you abusively.

i'm sorry.

vin, yeah maybe the one your ex-girlfriend got into

an accident made you not want to love truly anymore or something.

i don't know. cause i don't know you well.

its dramatic, but its over just after one wink.

you did let others know you wanted me.

but maybe you felt wrong. gahhh,

if one had the intention to play,

they wont sacrifice so much, or, give in too much.

yeah, thats what i've summarized after last night's deep thought..

cause i don't know why i'm still hugging your jacket,

to sleep every single night. drew said i was lying to myself, maybe?

your ring, i didn't keep it with me all the time anymore.

but i guess you sure might flash across my mind somehow.

sometimes. (:

You did try to make a name for us for me. Once before..

2009-05-11T00:58:00.001+08:00

Okay, tell you what. i'm irritated by my wireless Linksys.

pffffffft. and i wanna go that clinic at clarke quay!

and, bastard, yes its true.

you once told me your a bastard. now i know. its true.

first me, with vivian, then karina, with what? sylviana?

then now penny? damn you, stop playing a fool with girls man.

wait up, i'll soon fool around with guys, esp with people like you.

cause i no longer believe in whatever shit kind of love. HAH

and oh man i love daddy for giving me sums of money each and everytime,

i go broke and empty in my pocket D:

i love daddy. sorry mum, i don't know what to get you.

but i can't think of anything to buy you cause,

every year whenever i get you something, you always say the same thing.

i don't know what you really do appreciate except for the studies one.

geeez, okay. everyone, why so upset? time to cheer up.

cause superman cum porkpork is here! :D HAHAHA!

cheered eriko now hopefully she's better.

uhm, don't think going pulau ubin already haha.

but i somewhat hear dad wants to go jurong! O_O woot . haha!

enough enough lin. okay what now.. hmm ..

jerks, money, mummy, pulauubin, uh huh ..

talking to andrew right now, haha. another lie coming ==

i swear and believe its gonna be another. lalala~

whatever. i wonder who or what i'm waiting for.

am i or not waiting for it? i'm not too sure.

but i hope i'm waiting for something i just didnt notice.

well at least, for now..

I'm still feeling better cause,
you did leave a good reputation,
a place, position for me cause you did feature me.
allow others to know how much you loved me.
hahaha! but for these current girls your having on.
you didn't give a shit, not to even let others know,
your in love with that particular person. lmao!
how sad, how pathetic. (:
you left because i'm waaaay too into spying you LOL!
aw sad, i'm just scary in a way or so hahaha! :D

You know, i do miss those dramatic times.

2009-05-10T23:51:00.001+08:00

I never fail to feel really good at clarke quay :D

i loveeeeeeeeeee clarke quay! ^^

woke up specially earlier today despite sleeping really late.

then went city hall wooooop (:

for job hunting, but it suck i swear.

called one and he is irritating man! lmao.

he asked tons of shit. and end up feeling like,

he's giving me false hope hella shit -.-

didn't feel goood there. both of us were shaggggged.

then went bugis, initially kinda shag too. found one i think?

yeah, missed one of the call, the job we found last night.

gave it a miss since were late already.

bought some cheeze thingy at bugis before heading to clarke quay,

then i started acting up being high ahahah! :D

walked around, and everything, then went hg mall.

for dinner and buy some veryvery important stuffs.

which that dumbo egg almost not being able to buy that very imp thing ==

all thanks to pork pork! hahahah! :D

KFC, then yeah, walked home! ^^ ..

i think mummy wants to go pulau ubin tmrw?

not sure. might as well wanna go accompany that dumbo LOL.

don't know hahah! shall seeeeee!

darn, its hard to choose who to trust,

and who not to..

soemtimes i just feel like giving up,

and turn away..

how are things suppose to turn out like?
dramatic, or realistic?
sometimes. the last chance is given,
unknowingly, because one had been taking granted of it ..

2009-05-10T12:58:00.002+08:00

Couldnt sleep well last night.

slept at about 4am eh? :/

maybe more job huntings today haha!

hopefully able to repair my N81 == ..

so damn long already..

okay, needa bath then meet my dear egg :D

laterz~

I will be happier than you can ever be, jerk

2009-05-09T15:42:00.005+08:00

Morning! its 3.40pm Yawnnns! (:
good sleeep hahaha! okay, morning..
messages and messages o.o ..
over slept but still going out!
oh man that gay -.- i'm not angry .
but lol, i would like to see how he lies .
again, everyone who knows me well knows that,
i hate liars ahahha! sooo, you never twist story?
okay, i'll bring my lappy along when i confront you.
i'll see what you have to say. (:
off to meet my fried egg, *yummy
:D

/edited

ahhha! 12.27am now hmm ..
got home at 12.20am :D
wow long since i reach home late hahah!
feels good. *grins.
so, novena first, walkwalk.
job hunting lol, but nothing much, there's one korean shop memore -.- ...
idk what that lady was talking about lmao. i just went, oh okayokay
then bugis, went eggy's bro shop,
then arcade, then dinner together with ahheng :D
after dinner, ran off to street for more job hunting.
wooot, quite alot, well at least, more than expected. oh man! :D
asked alot, got alot, but i only wrote one . the rest, all eggy hahaha!
hopefully able to work? ^^
after street, was 10plus already. trained to clarke quay .
walked around, had turkish ice cream, then walked around,
the pub area. wow shit. its damn awesome.
i'm so gonna go there once i hit 18 .
HAHAHA! i swear i will! :D
and i dont care eggy, you gotta wait til i'm 18 D:
its only afew months away :x LOL
aight, then walked around, then cabbed home haha!
hopefully going out tomorrow :p
ciaos~

Now i'm wondering whose the one,
who does this to come on to my blog. ==

You knew its over before it even started.

2009-05-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

tsktsk.. kids ==.. lol

zhen and i :D

birthday girl and her boyfriend. sweet (:

his nose omg lol

Darren:L -.-

Allow me to just post tomorrow.

i'm going to bed. very tired!

THANKS ALOT WEISONG! (:

met him at 8 then back home.

pffft, too sleepy that i wanna just drop on floor.

and just sleep lol. and my husband is found!

mas selamat. heh. so happy lol -.-..

stupid. okay, goodnight.

I can't believe you lied right from the start. Where i got duped in..

2009-05-08T13:39:00.001+08:00

Busy, tired, and i wanna sleep.
laptop's still with ws, so, ima sleep like idk what today.
just came on to post madly,
that this son of a bitch. a gay in fact.
http://www.rain-darkprophecies.blogspot.com/
please man, he's twisting the god damn truth.
and talking like a dawg. oh fuck.
and deleting my tags again and again like a noob.
dare to post that he wanted to fight a girl.
then now, newly post that he didnt say so,
cause he removed the previous ones that he posted already.

ima go to sleep.
finally, i needa rest. D:

Because of the liars, they made not trust anyone..

2009-05-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

Another post to complain that im tired lol!
math paper 2, did the paper abit, slept all the way then.
and oh i love eggy for lending me calculator woop! 3cheers! :D
tomorrow's geography paper, oh hell haha! not knowing even the basics man.
brought lappy to school then passed it to ws. thanks ws!
now i need to search and ransack my whole house for one disc D:
darn, no disc, no reformat D:
after paper, went shop and save agn, then went back school,
passed the calculator to aggy then back to shop and save and home.
god, no idea if you know i'm talking about you,
but soon, i'll burst, cause i'm annoyed by you. your irritating.
and watch your words, watch what you say to me.
cause i've got a bloody short temper and i don't treat you as friend lol.
maybe hi-bye friend, yes. hhaha! whatever!
got to tamp.mall late with Ms Late. in fact everyone late, i think.
walked and stuffs, had pizza, and screwed the left over food hahaha!
Happy birthday Angela! :D
then, arcade almost all the way, manage to talk kind of alot w birthday girl.
then walkwalk all the way then back to sengkang.
dinner with zhen then home. wow! Can i have your number please?
HAHAHAHAH, i'll be making a joke out of this, the whole night man!
LAUGH MY ASS OFFFFF !
lots of stupid jokes today. i'm veryvery tired.
time to sleep and goodnight! pictures tomorrow maybe

Tryna' study math for tomorrow D:

2009-05-06T23:33:00.002+08:00

http://www.rain-darkprophecies.blogspot.com/

that site, go on and spam all you want lol.
cause his sucha gay. wants to fight a girl. lmao.
he's getting on my nerves by not replying lol.
alright, i slept for i think 5 hours or so. :D
tomorrow math paper, told to memorize fomular.
but idk whats the topic lol. just gonna look through the worksheets given.
off to some writing of fomulars hhhaa! :D

dumbdumb :D

Lin wishes Angela happy birthday! you better see this! :D

2009-05-06T16:41:00.001+08:00

Tsk, i'm home, and i'm very sleepy.
i know i know, 95% of my post are all of complaining,
that i'm sleepy, i know. but i really am! D:
i'm going to sleep right after this post man.
paper, let's not talk about it, i'm only awak for 30minutes for the paper,
to finish everything off. the rest of the time,
i'm basically asleep, and deep sleep you know.
during the break between 2 papers, natty and eggy made me wear ....
ah TT holy. i'll consider, cause its lookin weird on me .. D:
then walked the girls out of school and hailed cab,
went shop and save with yuting then walked to 119 (:
waiting for the yummiest egg lol!
compass, eat, walk, camped at toilet for awhile, LOL
then yeah, home after sitting at the walk way.
ah i'm really sleepy. tomorrow's math paper.
i'm walking onto a hell carpet even though i know it is.
lmao. okay, i'll post maybe later :D

2009-05-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

ahahah! i still love the effect man! :D

we sure did eat alot -.-

woah hah! internet internet! :D
before my internet goes off, here comes my lovelio post.
i'm having heavy eye kind of feeling lol.
happy birthday my dear sy daddy! ahha! (:
today social studies paper, like shit lah lol .
paper sucks lol, i slept the moment i got the paper,
for about 20-30minutes ahhha!
keep looking behind looking of anyone else was doing it. lmao
i suppose toot claiiiir and i both wrote rub-bish. ahhha!
okay enough, its late and i should stop being so high ==
all thanks to the fried egg near fernvale, tsktsk ..
after paper, shop and save for lunch then went home,
bathed and stuffs and then egg's house and bussed to city plaza.
done eating and stuffs, then parkway for walkwalk. oh god.
nobody would expect who i saw O_O! cause it was TOTALLY unexpected.
then, bussed to cozy baaaaaaaaaaaaay! :D
oh yeah, went arcade at parkway and leisure park hhaha!
played like mad woman lol! then, bought dinner and ate outside.
woooot. can't stop laughing at so much stuffs.
now my leg's almost broken and i'm TIRED! -.-
time to sleep dooodeh.
oh pray my bio could get at least 1 mark (:
goodnight!

She's daddy's girl

2009-05-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

Daddy's girl here singing karaoke at home
because i'm veryvery hungry, but nothing to eat.
so, daddy's girl is veryvery unhappy. D:
thats why he is cheering me up ^_^
but out sound quality isn't so nice.
hence thinking of going over to gugu house for a k-singing.
heh. tomorrow's social studies.
don't think i'm deciding to pass it since,
my geography won't pass, so, no point, really (:
thanks bryan for the mp4 .
tomorrow shall get it back!

Hoping what i thought isn't true.

2009-05-04T00:29:00.000+08:00

Shall be a short post? i hope :D
got back at i think 10plus or 11plus.
forgot but came back and brother told me,
wireless no internet. ah holy D:
unable to fix it this time round. aw.
met egg at compass then bought my tanktop at tampmall.
then wanted to go city plaza, but was considering,
then train went off already, so nevermind,
went cineleisure instead :D
went for lunch and movie. wooot. ahha!
i sure did talk alot today i realise. lmao .
okay now, tomorrow's english paper.
whats the format for letter? D:
ohno man. gosh. and the internet im using now is random one i found lol!
just sang finish some records, and most were deleted.
pffft. i like one of the random singing i recorded.
hahaha! okay. goodnight!

LASTLY!
ZAC EFRON IS SOSOSOSOSO
COOOOOOOOL!
hahaha!

and another, i've seen a ghost in threater.
WHAT THE HELL !
TT 'ghost'
i swear it freaked me out when i was left alone,
cause of someone -.-

Lin's becoming a pikachu. D:

2009-05-03T14:03:00.000+08:00

good morning! its 2pm now.
yawwwwwns i'm super sleepy really.
thanks px for the invite! love ayye (:
wanted to sleep for 14hours one really.
but my egg dear got me out heh. :D
not forgetting, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KITTY! :D
you better see this and tag me hor, MEOW! -.-
needa go bath now! meeting ws afterwards too.
hahaha! yes, im going to somewhere later.
gosh. ^^ but i can't practice my singing today, awww.
okay, bathtime!

2009-05-03T02:10:00.000+08:00

its 2.01am now.
i;m recording my own singing.
then listen through it . oh shit it holy suck,
cause mum and dad keeps asking me to SHHHH
cause ahka and bro are both sleeping, and its late already.
then i had to sing soft, so then naturally my voice goes sharp
and its ew i swear. im gonna practice it tomorrow.
its gonna rain now, yay : D
and laopa gave me a name, pikachu
my lappy's giving me electric current again!
so, im pikachu ahhha! someone called me that before.
long ago. i forgot :D ws's gonna fix my lappy for me tomorrw!
yeah :D

goodnight oh love (:

Superman tired already! Cannot tahan liao! -_-Zzz

2009-05-02T16:35:00.005+08:00

i'll decide whether or not to upload one picture.

laterz. if i can wake up.

i cannot stand it already. veryveryvery tired.

ah this feeling sucks. 4.34pm.

goodnight!

superman also will tired de okay -.-"

Liar with a bunch of liar friends.

who lied together to make up a tall story.

to pretend like nice and por.

DAMNIT I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

EVERYTHING I REALISE NOW,

SEEMS LIKE SO REALISTIC.

WHAT THE FUCK.

AM I SUPPOSE TO CONTINUE BE NICE PERSON.

OR JUST BE AS REALISTIC AS ANYONE ELSES?

/Edit
So i didn't sleep. something i'll never tell.
currently, learning the songs,
'The show - Lenka' & 'Like i always do - Drew'
pretty nice and meaningful songs.
i wanna sing it perfectly okay. (:
watching ai jiu zhai yi qi, woot can cry man. i did anyway.
well, i feel so depressed, maybe lack of sleep.
Pfffft. different type of poeple i come across each time,
are always confusing me. I lost myself, i don't know how to be myself -.-
i change whenever people around me change.
but now, so many, just so much people are realistic.
idk how to already. whats life man.

die lah, must be last night's electric shock,
shocked me til i dumb already lol . hopefully wont affect my eng paper :D
and i mustmustmust pass my english welllllllllllll!!!
everyone, drink lots of water and dont fall sick k!
people who are sick, GET WELL REALREAL SOON! (:

I watch you like a movie
I'll sing you like a song
Read you like a story
If it takes me all night long
Keep you like a secret
I'll tell you like a joke
It's true, It's true
That I'll love you like I always do.

Lin's not going to bed tonight!

2009-05-02T06:13:00.001+08:00

i knw, i'm supersticious. i only believe slightly in it :D

hahaha, nothing to say about this already :D

the whole day searching for songs.

really nicenice songs i'm kind of addicted to.

then, i got electric shocked, late evening.

yanping wanted the plug thing. so, passed it to her.

so i had to change the plug located for my laptop charger.

then somehow, i thought the plug i passed her, got me electric shocked.

i thought i felt numb. then it gets weirder. lmao.

really pekchek. then someone asked me to put on glove.

and someone else, veryvery late at night midnight already,

then told me, it could be the charger leakage.

then i remember dad checked already, nothing.

then i went check, since yanping passed the one i pass her back already.

then i use it back. so, then everything's back to normal.

and i went like, wtf, i got electric running through me for HOURS.

and i only got it done after another few hours after she passed it back to me.

lmao. how moronic. hopefully i didn't get myself even dumber

lol! okay. seriously, soooo late already. 6.12am.

early or late? haha! idk. not sure if i'm still going to sleep.

after talking to andrew, not really tired now. but still wanna sleep. duh..

dont wanna flunk another paper man! alright. good'morning? LOL!

edit/

wahseh! its 9.28am!
guess what, i didn't sleep a wink.
and right now, i'm like so afraid dad would come in the room.
and scold me like shit for not sleeping lol!
lmao! can't believe it.

Time to smile and get over it, lin

2009-05-01T14:18:00.000+08:00

Credit to Huimin LOL!

this picture makes up my day, really .

and Poker face - Lady Gaga. VERY NICE :D

so, i woke up and realise i feel taller.

have i grown taller? AWWWWW

so long since i felt like this heh.

one HL milk before sleep without dinner.

wowwwww :D

yuting your finally okay! :D

amni and fir! takecare man! (:

Funny how you need to cope with 3 darlings.

HAHA! and for a moment,

i thought you were faithful.

Its another lie. you preyed another 3 poor girls.

Awww (:

Superman cheers Eriko! fierce girl, cheerup!

2009-05-01T00:36:00.001+08:00

jia xiang jia xiang jia xiang
mian mian mian

jia xiang jia xiang jia xiang
mian mian mian

jia xiang
mian
jia xiang
mian

JIA XIANG MIAN! (:

Ranting & Ventings. sorry

2009-04-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

I can't cry hard enough. not for you to hear me.
but myself to chill out. But i can't. its hard. i don know why.
i don't know why you are so petty.
so everytime he gets scolded for something, there is something to do with me.
whenever i get scolded for something, it may not even concern him.
it doesn't have to be the elder to be blamed always.
it doesn't have to turn out this way, but you people choose to be biased.
superstitious and never thinks of the positive.
whatever i have in you people's mind, is just everything bad.
i'm short-tempered, petty, spendthrift, lazy, not sensible enough to sleep early,
not taking care of my valuables, always losing stuffs.
and yes i'm stupid. he's the smarter ones. so you guys dote on him alotalot.
he's everything right and i'm everything wrong. this has been going on for super long already.
i'm really dead beat. really. i always vent it out on you guys and tell you guys,
but you guys don't really care. and insist you people didn't spoile him, or being biased.
he's in a better class, he's smart. i'm stupid, i retained. im not sensible,
i dont even know how to cook, or do housework. not even tidying my own room.
oh wait, own room? do i have one? can i have one? never i suppose.
recession, not giving me money for stuffs i need for my school.
i had to get my CNY red packets money out to pay for the book.
after days, one of you had a small tiff with me. then very next day,
you left quite a number of 10dollar notes on the table for me.
whats that suppose to mean. i don't know what your thinking, i really don't know.
she said, you guys just dont know how to show the parental love.
okay, let that be. have you guys ever apologized? nope.
you guys only think, you have to be respected cause you guys are adult.
and adults are older, no need to respect kids.
whats that about. i'm sorry to tell you. i only respect people who respects me .
if you don't, neither will i. i've been nice enough i suppose.
even when i'm very down, i tries to talk nicely. but seriously,
stop using your feet to tap me on my arms or whatever. ITS RUDE.
i get annoyed but i never complaint a single. cept to her.
i'm jealous, very jealous. i don't understand why other parents,
could be like their friend, not mine. she asked me to try.
i tried talking to you nicely, but you are way too realistic. i don't understand why.
if you mind and xian qi me and mind anything about me.
why bring me out of this world. i don't like it, i really don't ..
not happy at all. just very tired. feels so pushed down, heavy big metal thing,,
squashing me? hah. if there isn't friend that i have.
i would have died without you people's permission .
under one roof. so near yet so far. everytime i step in this house.
i don't know how im suppose to react, all of a sudden,
i dont know hows my mood suppose to be like.
i turn to my laptop every single time i step in this house.
i spend 99% of my time infront of this or teevee.
cause, i don't know how to react, face you guys, or talk to you guys.
or even, the way im suppose to talk to you guys.
its crazy, really. its ridiculous and weird how things are becoming like.
now i don't even know how to do, how to move on, how to speak to you.
not anymore. its tiring. to think of how im suppose to react. or talk.
cause in less than a couple sentences, we all end up with a quarrel.
i wish i could just burst out crying in the toilet, and yi liao bai liao.
everything over. but, its been hard. been very hard to vent out by crying.
i can't cry anymore. i don't know what other options i have.
taking a step at a time aimlessly...

No crude words(?)

2009-04-30T20:05:00.002+08:00

okay. first paper today, chinese.
spent the night reading the chinese book last night.
read and tried memorizing the letter writing format.
hell lah! morning, studied, trying to get the stuffs right in my head.
were in the toilet the whole morning assembly.
so, tried to get it in my bigbig coconut brain.
then syafiqah came in, nagnagnag, keep ask us go out.
then nat was super cute! she entertained her ahhha!
then after quite awhile, one guy was shouting outside.
i burst out laughing, then syafiqah also kp =="
laughing is of offence what. then really can't stand her already.
went out bench sit. then they walked off. then classes dismissed.
they ask us go find our teachers lol. then we just stand up and sit back :x
thats about it. my paper, first paper.. flunked man.
sigh.. i totally forgot the format, so freakin' nervous lah!
cause i flunked once, so afraid i'll do the same. well i still did,
only in a different way. wanna cry man srsly..
then went canteen eat with clara yuting kitty amni.
yuting and amni! get well soon man! (:
then, paper 2. can lah haha.. vivian told me my paper one sure die.
used too much correction tape. but hopefully like previous years, will be okay..
that dictionary ate alot of my time that i spent searching for the stupid words..
double sigh ... don't wish to talk about papers anymore..
ipod again, another troubling me one. Mr marvin chan's not giving me back i think.
whatever it is. shall see it on monday. i'm dead beat.

had lunch opposite school. saw 2darrens and co.
done eating then egg wanna go somewhere.
didn't know where we wanted to go at first.
then went compass first. walked and stuffs.
overheard someone talking on public phone, so eavedropped what he's sayin.
hahaha! curious and kaypoh mah :D
he's so gonna SUE SUE SUE the school LOL!
idk lah haha. then went tamp.mall.
so now our legs are wobbly already. lol .
spent alot of time at the bookstore. reading..
wow i really think the books there are super nice lah!
shall buy it when i've saved enough.. i hope... (:
okay lah. i'm really tired and shagged ..

i got no idea why your msn nick changes,
always at the time when i'm online.
when i just come online. is that on purpose,
or its just coincidence?
but this coincidence thing happened waay too many times already..

2009-04-29T21:04:00.001+08:00

I srsly hate it when people like you,
yes you, cause i looked through past stuffs.
idk why people like you always goes,
'oh nevermind, its just the first time'
after hurting me. and after people say stuffs about you,
after you hurt me.
what shit does it mean.. oh nevermind, sekali saja.
tapi kamu tak tau that, this, makes me benci kamu more.

i'm hungry now -.- lol!
BYEBYE!
goodluck for everyone tomorrow!

was made to remove my crude msn nick.
well removed. okeh, something i hate..
yes there's millions of hatreds inside of me.
don't ask me why. i don't really bear grudges unless others do.
and i hate being scolded to do something.
the more you scold to make me do something,,
the more i'll rebel. frequently at home.
and whenever a friend a foe needs me.
i'll be there, do as much as i can.
give advise as needed. but i can't when i can't,
at the point of time when me myself is down.
sorry. i can only turn to a blog.
stop complaining about what i post, how crude it sounds,
or how much complains i make. i'll just talk less of vulgarities.
thats fine. other than that. i need this blog to vent.
goodnight.

2009-04-28T20:38:00.002+08:00

No pictures. Blahhhhhhhhhh .
long day. im super super sleepy in class.
that i accidentally fell asleep not even intending to do so.
then i slept for almost an hour i think.
last 15minutes rushed through all the work given.
and managed to finish it (:
alot of happenings in class.
bryan, you will be fine! :D
after school, compass. i love eggy! cooked me fried rice. awwwww.
i love eggs man! :D hahaha!
then accompanied her market-shop LOL!
vegetable and etcetc . done then went buy my stuffs and foood.
then i bussed to idk where. lol. met chatterboxs'
clara yuting kitty and i recognise gorden lol!
with i think felicia? yah. and another guy.
yuting and i walked to clara's home first. while they eat at coffee shop.
then wait for them to finish at her house. and went study room.
until 7plus also haven do. cause really don't know how to do :(
before 6 i think.. yuting left already. so sat there stone until 7.30 bah.
haha, finally the girls let me go home (:
walked home without feeling tired wow? prob cause i REALLY am down ==
idk. hah. idk. but anyway, cheerup everyone.
^^

idk what to say, idk who im really missing.
idkidkidk. i really don't know. but something,
just something is bothering me. its regarding something painful.
i know. its not jealousy i swear. its nothing to do with that.
but i just feel bad, feel, awful, uneasy, uncomfy.
am i missing you or what? i miss you hugging me,
like you won't see me tomorrow.
i miss you when you hugged me before i leave.
i miss you when you open your arms and give me a hug.
i miss you when you would give me a peck on my forehead,
just randomly, when you miss me even though you are right bside me.
i miss your smile when we met up at the start of the day.
i miss you whispering you love me in my ears.
i miss you when we would quarrel and scream everything from our heart,
and then cry with a very long silence on phone.
ah fuck. seriously. its annoying me. irritating!
i'm so so so sorry shell. i couldn't listen to you.
cause i can't solve your r/s stuffs.
cause my mind is in a complete blank.
cause i can't even help myself.
cause i guess, i'm dehydrated mentally. no more energy anymore.
not particularly in anyone. this is general. not for any guy anyway.

i'm simply tired of quarrelling under the same roof.
with own related. over this recession happening recently.
its totally driving me mad.
i wonder if i will just die right because of it.

2009-04-27T18:46:00.000+08:00

Yay, every nice sticks i finish with, i feel happy! (:
okay, today started out like wtf man seriously, it wa super humid!
i hate this humid weather man. then didn't went morning assembly.
toilet morning. humid + humid cause toilet no air lol!
lessons were okay. except that there is no way i can sleep,
cause again, humid! hothothot man! and, veryvery tired!
everyone in class looked so shagged cause they are all tired and of cause, weather.
i wonder what's about the pig flu and coming of SARS again. Pfffft.
coming to the end of the world? Hah. alot of movies seems like end of world alrdy.
they really hope the world to end soon lol ==
played with ice-cream sticks during D&T and that explains my above pictures.
saw clara doing it so i learnt :X heh. nice right! i know :D
last period was ms dino one. she was lecturing and scolding, and said,
today's not our good day cause almost every subject teacher went complaining to her,
about our behavior today. asking us what happen. and because of jeremy tan.
i did not attend the after-school math remedial which i really wanted to.
i wanna do well for my god damn mid-year this time round lah! :(
i don't wanna live life aimlessly anymore. its time i wakie wakie. hahha! (:

precious egg, i'm here ^^
cheerios ji dan!

just love me man ahhha!!
ohhhw i know you do aight? :D

2009-04-26T19:53:00.000+08:00

SUPER TIRED! goshhhhh

slept at 4am + and had to wake as early as 9am.

but seriously couldn't get up. so, only able to wake

after at least 5-6hours of sleep.

yeh. then got up at about 11 i think.

got ready and stuffs, then out with ahka alrd.

bussed to bedok and then bussed again to location.

got there and well yeah, stayed there for awhile for more info.

then had lunch there. don't like the people there.

so arrogan. pfffft. okay.. then took bus to parkway, since it's pretty near.

then, board bus, until east coast, 2uncles came up and look veh friendly.

spoke to us like we knew each other hah. cause its raining.

and they are drenched aww. hmm. he said he was a friend,

of one of the air supply. maybe its true. maybe not haha!

but anyway, alighted. horrible! heavy rain man!

lent ahka jacket to cover, i got a box thingy and ran over shelter.

went giant, blah blah and walk walk :D

then shop finish already, and then bussed to amk.

and next, hougang mall. bought dinner, and here i am back home.

super tiring man! jiaying's gonna spend the day here tomorrow (:

don't think i can do my homework? well depends. haha..

i'm seriously deciding to mug for exam now.

i promise to do better this time round.

goodnight! hong xing da jiang is pretty funny now.

hahaha! :D

mg, nlyp. both of yous' memories are ...

kind of burying me under a big pile of wet soil.

2009-04-26T04:39:00.000+08:00

Can't count the number of lies you have made up.

Not counting the ones i suspect its a lie,

but just bypassing it to prevent happenings to happen.

But just the lies i found out and really looked into the matter,

alone. Is already countless.

But up til today, this very moment.

Any time. There would be a truth come running to me,

giving me eviddence or witnessses to show you really did lied.

Well i knew it is a lie. But, i made up a lie, by lying to myself.

Telling me what you did/said is true.

How moronic, how true, how false. Its complicated.

I wonder why you lie. Cause one lie links up to another,

Then from one lie, you gotta lie more and more..

So, why trouble yourself when you could just tell the truth,

and then solve it from the truth itself, even though, truth DO hurts.

okay this is pure shit that i'm crapping. Cause you, about you.

I found out stuffs you do not know, that i know.

But who cares, not even you. Even if i were to confront you,

saying you lied. Threatening you, you would continue with another lie.

Hah. How ridiculous can a big liar be. Live life with lies every single day.

DOOOD . Its boringgggg!

GOODNIGHT. or GOODMORNING!

-4.39am

2009-04-25T17:29:00.001+08:00

got up from 14hours of sleep unexpectedly

wow! replied smses halfway through sleep.

tell myself i'll wake up later, later, later.

then the last later was at 1pm then i got up at 3pm instead

okay. then. thought i felt like going out.

but then again, recession, aw it sucks.

yes, cause of my parents duh.

forget it. i shall save however much i can .

don't wanna go bankrupt in the end LOL (:

ima rot home.. something is getting fishy.

i'll have to stay on my own guard.

goodluck brother for your competition!

son of a bitch,
you spoilt my fuckin' day.
urgh fucker.
now i fuckin' trust nobody,
outsiders!

2009-04-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

tons of valuables i took caare of during 2.4 run lol!

stacks of math homeworks.

& below, candids by yuting/boon LOL

not i take one! but idk if she will kill me for this :x

opssseh! :D

whose there? haha! this is claraa :D

seaweed did that when i was sleeping too -.-

Today IS quite bad. but got neutral later then ..

phone got confiscated during recess. fucked up :X

slept throughout whole geography.

felt so bad screaming at people during recess. Pfffft.

bio, nothing much. was suppose to bring whole stack of books home.

but didn't in the end. took some. and put back the other 3/4 stack back in class.

gonna bring them back on monday :O

after school, tamp. mall (:

bussed there. no seats :[ walked ard at tamp 1

then met up blogshopper and off to tamp mall eat.

food court. again haha! then walkwalk.. and back home.

everyone's off to chalet/bbq. supposingly going to sy one.

but, mummy's not going. so, maybe not going :/

exam soooooon! wanna cry already man. pfffft.

no dates tomorrow. saded. TT but i shouldn't .

but again, i'm bored. need to study leh :/

ahhhhhhhh!!

2009-04-23T20:08:00.004+08:00

No doubt. its jaron! ahhha!
In video: Jaron and Roysius.

school was quite okay i suppose.
went school listening to just phone songs.
i know it sounds pathetic but my phone's earpiece sounds better!
then was gloomy for the whole first hour of lessons at DNT.
2 chatterbox msged me, sweet girls hah! (:
what rashidin said is still making me brood over it.
up til now. i long knew about that. just not facing it.
but i guess i have to, sooner or later. then why not learn it now. haha
ipod case over. truth out. i don't find it a joke, really ==..
so, over then forget it. since apologized and forgiven.
eh.. lesson were boring enough. i just feel everyday are just math.
cause i only do and listen during math, haha!
even stayed back for math remedial (:
walk aggy to traffic light then went hg mall with chatterbox.
had pepperlunch. walk for abit then home. pretty tiring.
not as tired as them lah :x they had 2.4 whereas i got another term MC HOHO! :D

okayokay. i'm sleepy.
i'm always sleepy. -.-
goodnight..

idk why i thought of a jerk.
but forgive me man.
just missed him for abit hah!
crappppps ~

2009-04-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

Pfffft. i'm better after someone told me something (:
i trust you, ahboy!
you never fail to be my superman like you promised aye :D
gosh your the best of the best!
hmmm, been silent since i came back.
went shopping again. heh. egg is so mean today ahha!
awww. i love eating egg so much babe!
someone's birthday coming so soon!
hmm, alright okay. i need to do my homework, really.
so, bye people.

i love egggggs!
i love Miss chatterbox & ahboy
and everyone elses. HOHOHO

2009-04-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

Today will be full of words with anger.
bear with it if you wanna read. but if your the theif here.
then fucking read this.

You know, i don't care which shit you are.
where shit you from, okay. If your someone who was por-ing me .
then fucking not let me know who this shit you are.
cause if i found out who, before you admit.
then you will get shit from me i swear.
don't try acting one Mr/Ms Nice infront of me.
cause when i flare up on you, i swear, i really do swear,
i want you to fucking kneel down right shit infront of me.
when i ain't doing anything about it, don't mean nothing aight.
don't try me, really. i mean no harm. but if your gonna make things ugleh.
i'll do it with you along with me. don't want things to go bad,
then hella shit return it to me tomorrow.

alright. this shit thing is kind of pissing me off.
but whatever it is. really, don't dare me. i can flare up.
i never had flared up outside. i fucking don't fuck care where shit you from.
how many shits you got behind'ya. who cares?
GET YER DIRTY HANDS OF MY BELONGINGS DUDE!

i'm fucking pissed off with you.
get yer ass back to me tomorrow.

2009-04-22T01:15:00.001+08:00

2009-04-21T18:58:00.011+08:00

oh damn. sorry for the last part.
they were throwing stuffs and hit me ==
ah! how to cut off last part -.-

alright, here goes. these are videos of shawn.
instructor for rhythm and beats. he is totally awesome!
these videos may not be very nice or what so ever.
blame my phone's quality. it suck.
but ah well, you should have seen him sing right infront of you.
was sitting right bside him, recording his self play and sing.
wow lah! special thing to a good song is when they know what they sing,
and feel what they sing. guitar thing haven got reply yet.
but if we get the guitar thing. it will just be a lesson :D
but yeah, cool. if i know the basics, i'll self-learn it at home!
then yeah, he taught us singing techniques. pfffft.
singing is not easy though. but it never had been haha!
its true niggas sing well. but, they are born with it. unfair though ==
whatever. the videos may not sound nice, first of all cause of the quality.
secondly, cause the guys were making noises behind at background.
drumming, playing, running, throwing stuffs. so, yeah.
only firzanah and i were right beside him listening to his play and sing.
hahaha! super addicted to it. kept making him sing another and another. LOL
there was one, english and chinese one, he wrote it himself. GOSH! so cool
okayokay. enough of my fa hua chi-ing -.- ..
class, was nothing. been sleeping and sleeping. pfffft.
short temper causing me to defiant moronic teachers. ah shit Zzz ..
so, when i can, i'll just sleep in class.. dad drove me to school.
due to the super heavy rain. really super sleepy Zzz .. practically, nothing much.
exam is sooooooo coming soon. like next week! :(
so, sleep til 11pm just now == .. 1am already ..
and, i found what i thought i had lost it! yay :D
the picture! (:

oh okay done. i'm getting long-winded.
BYEBYE PEEEEE-PER!

& peeee-per! cheer up man!
its upset-ing to know so many people are down,
or even troubled. so, cheer up! (:
nothing leads to a better day other than a big smile,
then a great day! :D

2009-04-20T23:30:00.001+08:00

first thing, cheeeerios everyone!
second thing, lin's so gonna kill boon for smacking me so much today! :x
third, am so gonna confront someone basket at amk if free? :/
fourth, TOMORROW IS ELECTIVE MODULE! HI-FIVE!
fifth, wow, realise im numbed over things happening already! :D
sixth, lin found a blue black, idk where it came from but its pain! :(
seventh, eye is tired. very tired.

had so much in mind just now.
now im too tired to think.
ehheh. i love everyone who loves me (:
GOODNIGHT LOVEH!

i want that perfume from sasa ^^

2009-04-20T18:19:00.002+08:00

cityhall window shops

done by yuting on my foolscap O_O

not bad huh, supermannnnnn! :D

tooty girl ahha! (:

i'm super super sleepy. very very sleepy..

been sleeping in class as much as possible.

chinese, sleep cause i forgot to bring my book.

math, mr ho woke me up, so i vent a lil anger and did his work.

finished today's homework! but i still got tons to finish. sigh..

english and geography today was horrible cause ms lee's talking to herself.

and really, 98percent of the time, she was sooooo pissed, she talked to herself.

but she didn't give us up. honestly, she's kind-hearted. thats really true.

but, she's too long-winded. appreciated at times though. ahha!

listen to her or not, who will lose out? us of cause.

ah well.. dnt was my sleep time too. only went out to workshop,

took my practical stuffs, handed in and went back aircon room sleep.

super cold -.- and clairrrrrrre laughing at me lol! calling me a pig . tsktsk ..

what a meanie.. lol. okay. then biology, nothing interesting. half-asleep.

after school, intended to just get home, bath and sleep.

but this dear girl yuting wants to go hougang mall. wanted us to accompany.

so, yeah, had pepper lunch. got them laughing like hell :x

then, walkwalk and stuffs, talktalktalk then bus home with yuting (:

here i am half-asleep. mummy's so nice to me today.. heh .. how rare..

might go gugu's house for some singing session. im sleepy.. still TT

one little secret. I HATE THE NEW EZ-LINK CARD! *frowns

veryveryvery ugleh! aw shit man. its the primary school picture.

and its veryveryvery ugleh! regret giving my older one to ms dino.

asked her if we could get it back she said yes, so i gave.

my minnie sticker was behind. so she went like, byeeebyeee minnie!

then i said, WOOT? i thought can take back?!

she said yah, you can. the brand new one lor ^^

AH SHITTY SHIT :(

and i see the word 'gunawan'

on my english worksheet today. i got super shock.

never had seen that name. but after losing someone, i see it.

laughs*

supsup, jiayi baobeh and shihua cousin.
both of you, cheer up man. i'm just a call away.
baobeh, we are just one streets away remember? (:
cousin sh, even though you're far. i got the right to be there for you.
your my cousin, not an outsider. no one's allowed to bully you.
stand up for yourself. your far, but you know we're mentally near.
aight, everyone feeling bad over alot of stuffs now.
guys, you gotta cheer up. i can listen to you guys, but same goes,
you guys gotta stay strong yeh know. stand up for yourself! (:
24-hour pair of ear here!

2009-04-20T00:01:00.001+08:00

through my window, i see this.

and after watching 'knowing'

i thought its the end of the world. wooooot.

and ah well, i went out! :D

11.58pm now. so, 2 more mins,

guess whose birthday? 10 more days countdown

mid-year exam's birthday == ..

not trying to me humourous, or er, maybe yah . lol

was kind of hyper out just now ahhha!

promised to go suntec/kbox/cine! :D

yay yay (: okay, my stomach's very full! :/

blahblah. schoooool tomorrow! i'm gonna rush through my homework..

journey in bus was horrible. i wish you never existed urgh.

horrible to think of you i tell you -.-

2009-04-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

am in a bad foul moood i swear.

ahka don't wanna go parkway. urgh.

and holy, i wanna go bugis so much.

might just get out of this house to somewhere.

i sure will. despite having slight fever now.

but whatever. i just hate staying home and looking at that,

'a pack of cig' which really makes me feel. WTF

ah okay. nevermind. i haven't been sleeping for 12hours a day already.

:'( thats one of the reason that makes me having a foul mood.

ahahaa! drama on tv today is making me laugh like shit lol!

and i'm super worrying about the coming mid-year.

brooooooooooooooooding over so much shit.

2009-04-18T20:21:00.002+08:00

i'm super duper tired!

all pictures are with cool brenda,

know why? cause her new haircut is cool! (:

so, there is just 3 things i can upload, me, myself, and i!

i'm getting lame, i know. surprisingly, i woke up myself.

so, smsed clairrr ahha! i call her that cause she hate being called that :x

so, she got up already. smsed yuting, she didn't reply, thought she is asleep.

before i washed up, yuting said she is done bathing =="

so, bathed, done, met up. waited for the 2 queens lol.

we reached about 11 at kbox i think.

so yeah, was still sleepy and feeling uneasy cause of the heat.

veryveryvery hot == .. so, got in room, yeah, started singing.

not very hyper eh? lol. i swear clara's voice very teeenyyyy winnnnyyy cute!

then she went off before 3. sang for abit then went off with yuting too.

got to cityhall, intend to find jiayi at the art's house. but had no idea where it is.

so, ended up just walking around. then the blisters on my feet hurts soooo bad! :(

was complaining and complaining to yuting lol. bet she got irritating ahha!

everything there was so branded lah! -.-" wahkao.

then decide to go back hougang since she can't stay out late.

wanted to go where else. but forget it. my feet is really, buay tahan -.-

then her mum wanted to send me back? O_O sooo shocked? lol

then yeah, went look up her parents then drive me home :D

wanted to meet up with huiqin for dinner. but she was movie-ing for so long?

dont know what she doing :( Zzz ... then ..

find mummy, i know she thinks i'm guai ahhhha! i was self-praising alot just now

then got dinner then home. i want more kbox/movie tomorrow lol!

don't know. ahha! all i know is i'm super tired -.-

oh and yeah! saw bryan while train-ing back :D

aww their so sweet :D !

hahaha! okay, time for me to rest? .. .. lol

what can i say?
your one i think of when i wake.
and last i have on my mind to sleep.
and even in my dreams.. i have you..

i wanna fucking cry out.
this is shit. everything happening is making it pain
i wanna cry the shit outta her _|_
AH WHATEVER!!!!!

2009-04-17T22:36:00.001+08:00

my eye was half close lah! its total candid when i was sighing ==

candid by: Yutingggggggggg(:

wow wow food LOL!

ahhhhahhaaa!!!!

awesome night. too much of a awesome time

too much to post. i just can't help but laugh!

egg and cutlet's laughing hours LOL

i'm sooooo full now ahhhhaa!

EGG! LIZARD!

"OMGGGGG, IT'S STILL THERE!"

2009-04-16T23:58:00.001+08:00

and yeah, there's this girl named melissa,
who went pushing the lower secs after grabbing on hold them,
for the wrestling game and stuffs like that.
i couldnt stand that scene. and she's such an annoying girl.
she talks to me everytime she sees me, and smiles at me.
like what shit? everyone hates you lol. you and your friends all know that.
stop talking to me cause i don't freakin know you.
your just an outsider. i know your friend, i didn't said i know you.
so you aint my frieend. nor a stranger, just a passer by in school,
that i don't know. -.- .. well this is random, nothin much ..

~~hah, cousin? you call me your cousin?~~
~~when your like a loan shark.~~
~~getting back your GAME money every now and then.~~
~~probably you might see this and fume.~~
~~and even, say i'm a brat. spoiled brat kid or somethin huh?~~
~~that game stuffs was 2 year ago.~~
~~your still after it. its 200 over SGD .~~
~~are you kidding me?~~
~~yes i told mummy. so what? my mum was mad at you (:~~
~~yes, its just a game. not like you used cash for that stuffs?~~
~~and ya i know that stuffs are really one of the most expensive stuffs.~~
~~but i'm sorry, its just a game. i'm at fault, but there's no way i will return it.~~
~~you said i'm avoiding it. yes i am.~~
~~cause out of 20, 20 person told me NOT to return you.~~
~~your 17 right? you aint that poor huh?~~
~~whereas, look at me. i ain't rich .~~
~~your my cousin, but not a close one. stop being stingy .~~
~~i didn't mention names aight. don't go complaining either.~~
~~and yeah, 200 dollars, imagine how much my parents should be right damn near the fire,~~
~~frying that god damn stuffs, for the god damn money, and for you?~~
~~no way. no shit way. i lost your stuffs i know. its game stuffs.~~
~~the more you ask, the more i hate you.~~
~~the more i'll tell myself. i dont have a cousin like you.~~
~~then as time goes by, i won't go to ahma's house to look at you during CNY anymore.~~
~~stop being so .. urgh. your annoying and irritating me.~~
~~just leave my life alone won't you. i fuckin' hate being chased after of money.~~
~~and not MONEY that i owe . its game stuffs that i owe.~~
~~Zzz ..~~

whatever it is already.
whatever you think.
i'm still gonna try and pretend nothing's happening.
i just need some space, some places to go.
just some fresh air.
i'm suffocating real bad. (:

ONG
QIU
LIN
IS
FUCKING
GOING
INSANE
.
F
U
C
K
.
I
T
!

2009-04-16T22:24:00.001+08:00

(no title) -

wresting1 -

wrestling2 -

wrestling3 -

wrestling4 -

wrestling5 -

sounds abit noisy lah. but, yah. haha! easily irritated one,
don't try playing the videos lol. low quality too..
well no idea why, but the whole class was super tired.
spent our PE at this wrestling thing.
there were the press there, and would be on channel news asia :D
alan wu was there! well if i never spelt wrongly lah ahha!
don't understand what he was talking, cause it was so very fast -.-
passed my chinese test, yay! :D tomorrow, SS test.
shit lah, damn worried :( .. and i'll be sooo alone tomorrow lol
sec4s not around. and yeh, after school, accompanied clara,
wait for her dad and talk to mrs chong and mr ho.
took rather long hours lol. then his dad drove us to RP.. ahhh gosh ..
then, he treated us mac. pffffft. i swear i felt damn bad -.-
he went walking aruond while we eat. then he came in after finishing window shoppin
then he sat at the other table. which i feel double bad..
he then drove us home. ahhhhhh! her dad is sooooo awesome :X
bestest daddy eh? ahhha! :D then yeah, nothing much i suppose.
screamed at boon for messing my hair -.- pfffffft.
having dry eye. and my face.. i wanna get my moisturizer soon (:
saturday, kbox i think? and bugis hopefully. heh..

small alan wu :(

better than none right. heh can see his fitfit body! :D

amni & i :D

yes i'm avoiding everything that is running towards me,

that might hurt me in some ways.

i guess it might, so i'm avoiding it.

i know, avoiding does nothing good.

and i know, the more i avoid, then in the near future,

something even worse will happen. i guess i'm ready for it.

at the moment, the numb-ness inside of me.

i see everything, i watch happenings that would spike my heart.

but, all i feel is the suffocation, no pain.

it feel bad, too. Duh. but, really, bearable.

not pain, just uneasy. people ask me, how am i.

i guess i'm fine. cause i don't know either.

i'm standing in a middle of no where.

i dont know where to turn/walk/move on.

i WANT to move on. but move where? to what?

hah, i really don't know..

one thing on my mind, i don't know why,

but i feel kind of happy, but a lil hatred and jealousy inside of me..

when i see you dote on her alot, care and worry for her..

you love her. (:

i wanna hate you, i wanna just, leave it and move on.

ah holy shit. how? i tried talking, venting, shouting,

screaming, listening to songs, and so far,

i can't cry. stuck haha! like again,

i think i'm happy.. but its just hard to vomit out the uneasy-ness

i hope kbox would help.. with the superwoman ahhha! :D

i don't feel nothing at all when i always do hold on to the necklace.

i don't feel anything. seriously.

but when i thought i lost that,

i had that urge to cry.

its just like the story goes between the both of us.

when i had you, i didn't care, i thought it wasnt anything.

i thought its just another passer guy who would poke my heart again.

yes you did, its true. but in a way i didn't expect.

in fact, when i lost it, i feel it. then i feel the pain.

when your around, i feel numb. i doubt, i cry, i suspect.

i'm just not so ready to get into another relationship.

living my own life is what i want now..

but you, why did you even pass by -.- ..

irritating Zzz..

2009-04-15T21:33:00.003+08:00

ahaha! longlong dayy. and, i donated a dollar for SPCA vending.

pffft, sec ones didn't gave the change well :(

ah well, then, had HL, yay! i want grow tall haha!

bought ms dino poster and paste car thingy. lol

lessons were okay. had to set target for CA and SA ==

blahblah, Mr Ho foul mood today, so yeah ..

boredom, quieter than usual in class today.

feel a little weirder. just not well or normal .

ahhh nevermind. hahaha! after school got to compass w aggy

then home to for her projects then eat. haha! i saw gugu (:

she's so cute with the spongebob shirt lol! she misses me yay! :D

hahaha, okay lah. funfun day though. neuuuuuu-tro-gena waveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

pfffft, hopefully its not me aye! :D
if THAT is meant for me.
then fuckkfuckkfuckk you (:
IF its me, then i suppose you come confront me aight.
don't shit that attitude there lol